
It has been 5 days since I returned home from Haiti. My back is doing much better, each day I am able to move more and more. It is hard to come home from a trip, there is all the unpacking and laundry, but the really hard part is washing all of the girls clothes and putting them away. As I fold each item of clothing I remember what we were doing, each outfit that the girls wore brings back memories of the time we spent together. The bags of their clothes still sits in my bedroom a silent reminder that they are not home, that for now I have to put them away until the next time I get to see them. There is a pair of Destina's shoes kicking around by our laundry room that I have not put away yet, it is like all the other kids in the house they leave their shoes around for me to pick up, somehow I want to leave Destina's shoes kicking around as a reminder that she should be here and that her shoes should be strewn about the house and I should be getting mad at her for leaving her shoes around like I do my other kids.
I have had a really hard time coming home this trip my every thought is in Haiti. We had such a great week I did not want it to end. I am weary of this process after 2 1/2 years we are still so far away from the end that it is hard to believe that they will ever come home.
While in Haiti we found out that when they went to add Avrie to the file already in IBESR they had to pull our file out and start all over again. So after being in IBESR for 6 months we basically had to start from square one again. We had to get Presidential Approval again, even though we already had it. It is pretty discouraging to know that after 2 1/2 years we are still not making progress, we are still stuck. At least we know that our file is just not sitting on a desk being forgotten that they are working on it so I am hopeful that we will have some movement soon. However, my girls are still in Haiti I am 5,000 miles away and I miss them terribly....maybe I will leave Destina's shoes kicking around the house, maybe that will make it feel like they are closer to home.






