I am also having to part with some treasured items that are tugging at me emotionally. I have my mother's baby grand piano up for sale and as much as I know I need to sell it, because I really don't have room, I will probably be moving again at some point, and it is not easy to move, it is still hard to let it go, it has been a daily reminder of my mom.
A year ago when I was trying to figure out how I was going to pay for expensive divorce lawyers to fight off the crazy stuff Scott was sending my way, I had a night where I didn't sleep much, I have had several of those nights, but that night in particular I was stressing about money. In the early morning hours I heard my mom's voice as clear as day telling me to "sell my piano". I woke up crying, I never thought I would ever have to part with her piano. I managed to come up with the money needed to pay the lawyer. Then I found myself in a position of needing to sell the house. Finding a house that I can afford that has room for a piano just really doesn't exist. I have had a year to emotionally disconnect from the piano and I am ready to let it go....or so I thought. I had a piano teacher come over to check it out for one of her students that was interested in the piano, and as she was playing tears just started streaming down my face, it was the first time since my mom had passed away that someone was playing the piano like she used to play. I was embarrassed because I had a hard time keeping my emotions in check while telling the piano teacher why it was so emotionally hard for me to see it go. But it is time for the piano to be loved by someone else and I will always have the memories of my mom playing the piano and teaching my children to play the piano as well.
I have had to learn to let go of a lot of things the last couple of years, some of been easier than others, but I know my mom would be at peace with my decision and supporting me.
Life is an adventure, changes are coming, and I am taking control and making the most of my life!
I sold my piano the other night to someone who reminds me a lot of my mom, she is a piano teacher and will take great care of the piano...she even said I could come by and visit.
