My emotions are pretty raw at this moment. We received the worst news that any family can receive! I got an e-mail from our adoption coordinator this afternoon and Ellie got sick and was taken to the hospital and she passed away this morning. We have all been crying, actually sobbing is a better word, for the past 3 hours. I was on the phone with a good friend and funny we were talking about the different trials that we go through and I was telling her that I am ready for a break, ready for the flat road for awhile when I opened my email and read the news I started sobbing and told her what happened then had to hang-up.
My heart hurts, that was my little princess, that is a child I knew I was meant to care for. I love her as much as I love any of my other children. How do we morn this loss? We didn't have the chance to say good-bye, we didn't get to tell her how much we love her. Did she even remember who we were? Did she think we came and loved her for a week then abandoned her? My children lost a sibling one that they had already made part of our family.
If you have been to my house you know that there is a picture of her in almost every room. Not a day, an hour, or a moment goes by that we did not think of her. How do we go on? Where do we go from here?
I have appreciated all the the prayers that have been said on behalf of our family please continue to pray for us, we are struggling, we are completely devastated!
3 comments:
Oh, Michelle! My heart is breaking for you and your family! I'm so, so sorry.
Ellie had a smile that could warm a room, and she knew you loved her. That was obvious from the time we spent together in Haiti. Watching her grow into your love in that short week was a blessing for us.
Please know you're in our thoughts and prayers.
Dear Scott and Michelle,
I heard about your loss through Lori's blog. I just wanted to write and tell you that I am SO sorry. I, too, lost a child that I was adopting in Haiti. I now know that it was all part of a bigger plan. Now I have two sons from Haiti and I know it was meant to work that way. But it was and is still painful.
Are you LDS? You don't have to respond if you don't want to. I just thought that I would let you know that I can empathize with the pain that you are going through. I am SO sorry. I will pray right now for your beautiful family.
Sincerely,
Shannon Cox
Michelle and family,
I am so sorry. I can't imagine what you are going through. I know how much you loved her and I know that Ellie knows this too! You were a source of love and hope for her in her short life. She is home again and safe and hopefully that knowledge will give you some relief at this painful time. You are in our prayers!
Love,
Mike and Lisa Bradshaw
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